One Year
by Bryan Strawser
It’s been almost an entire year, almost to the hour as I write this, since Galadriel passed away.
Six months ago, I tried to write about how I felt at that point, and utterly failed.
But in many ways, that posting wasn’t an utter failure, because everything that I wrote in it was true.
I still look for her.. In fact, this very morning, before the fogginess had lifted from my brain, I was wondering where she was when I woke up.
I still mourn her.
A few days ago, I downloaded the video for I will follow you into the Dark by Death Cab for Cutie. I could only watch about thirty seconds of the video, featuring a pair of rabbits who grow old and then pass away together, before I broke down.
One year later, I still cry.
Thanks for getting me all choked up at my desk as I'm eating fish and chips and trying to prep for a meeting….my two boys are almost 8 and 9, and although they probably have another 8-10 years left in them, I still dread the day I lose them….just thinking about it makes me very emotional and teary….I always tell my friends I will need to take at least a one year sabbatical from work/life to mourn….they think I am exaggerating, but I'm not…..
I'm even getting very sad at the prospect of leaving them for one week starting next week when I go on vacation….even with all the friends I have who will be walking them, and visiting them, I keep thinking, "no one can give them the same love I can!!"
Yes, I am one of those crazy pet-people…..
I am sorry for your very deep loss….I hope you indulge in many happy memories of her today…I'm sure she is thinking of you!